I dread these “small” hours
these dark hours
these interminable hours,
stretching unbearably
while I watch for the line
between windowsill and blind to lighten
and I am envious
envious to the point of madness
of all these around me
wrapped in their cosy blanket of sleep
it will not come to me
it creeps near,
comes tapping on my scalp like rain
but this impermeable skull keeps me in
and keeps sleep out
hour after hour
all these small hours
I am starving at the feast-
they take their little slice of death
to see them fresh for another day
and I look on at their placid faces,
hear their slow, satisfied breaths
and envy them until I hate them
until I no longer wish to join them
but just for there to be no more days
and no more “small” hours