for d’Verse haibun Monday, “cherry blossom“:
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining. It’s not like I was dangerously ill. I didn’t end up in hospital or on a ventilator or anything like that. I was only really sick for maybe a week, and now this lingering malaise. Like being invisibly weighted about the shoulders and ankles, and drained of energy and enthusiasm for… well, anything.
So I have given myself permission to not try too hard for a while. This is a new thing, and sits uneasily. I tell myself that my mind needs rest just like my body does, and I hope that it’s true. Because I keep expecting to get bored, to feel the urge to do something, to write something. But I don’t. So I’m working shorter hours, no evening walks, no writing. Walks tire me too much, leave me coughing and exhausted. Worse than this, words escape me. Phrases fall apart before they reach the page, scraps of white-noise with no meaning, like cherry blossoms in the wind.
my words come apart,
in drifts at my feet
26 responses to “words falling, like petals”
Oh Kate, being struck by illness forces a pause neither expected or appreciated. Sounds like you are listening to the wisdom of your body. Take care.
Thanks VJ. ❤
I sympathise!! I haven’t had covid yet. But your des ription reminds me of chemo. It will pass. Sorry you’re so glum. 😦
With kids at school it was probably inevitable. I’m just glad I was fully vaccinated before I got it!
Yes, the “yet” in my comment implies my own belief in inevitability. Because of the cancer, I was fully vaccinated and had my booster by the end of October. I am actually wondering if I should ask about another booster.
Ouch. It’s awful you had to go through that. I hope you start feeling more your old self soon. You must be moving that way to create the haibun. 🙂Take care, Kate.
Thanks Stephen ❤
Yes, it's the first thing I've written for 2 weeks, so I must be getting better. 🙂
cos my dear
you are the best you
i the son
felt that way too
two years ago
of now despised covid 19~
Thanks John ❤
It must have been hard having covid early on. I'm lucky to have not caught it until fully vaxed.
Oh no! A white noise wordsmith wipeout. Hope you are soon back on top form. 💖
Thanks Hobbo 🙂
Wishing you increased strength and healing. Well done.
Sometimes our best words appear in our weakest moments. Rest, there is no hurry.
That’s what I keep telling myself. I wish I hadn’t read so much about covid before getting it – the possibility of being fuzzy-headed for a long period is worrying.
Feel better soon.
Thanks LuAnne. 🙂
I hope you recover soundly–and soon! You evoke the feeling of illness eloquently. I love how you incorporated cherry blossoms into this one!
Thanks Frank ❤
Nice prose and poem. I hope you recover quickly and completely, and predict that, when you least expect them, the words will come gushing. Be well.
Thanks Roger. ❤
I hope so – I've started reading prompts again, but am still finding my mind blank.
Recovery after an illness can take a very long time… was it covid?
Yep, covid. We’ve had a real surge in cases lately.
I can relate to words slipping from your grasp, it’s a strange feeling. I hope you feel well soon.
Thank you Pat ❤ it's very frustrating.